birthdays, sleepovers & tornadoes:)

I have been really busy since I last posted. Birthday parties, sleepovers, tornadoes, and valentines parties have kept me pretty busy:) The girls went to a birthday party at this little kid salon called sweet and sassy, and now Reagan has decided she wants her birthday party their which I dont blame her, it was alot of fun! They both went to a sleepover and had a blast, and it made me feel good because the little girls parents said that they were the best behaved kids with great manners ( I am not sure what happens at home:) that makes any parent proud!

Last week we had really bad weather, which if you know me at all you know that I am very afraid of storms. It was not just a thunderstorm though it was a tornado in february!! Thankfully we were ok, but it did touch down about three miles from the house, which is to close for comfort for me:) It really worries me because if they have already started it means we are probably in for alot of bad weather this spring, and I am sure most of it will happen when Tim is in Texas. I did find out what the nearest shelter was to us though so next time I will be prepared and not out driving around trying to find someplace to go.

So lately I have been feeling like I am not doing a very good job at this mom thing:) sometimes I feel like I have no idea how to be a good mom, and I have been trying my best to be more patient, not get so stressed when the house is a mess and just take time out to enjoy the little things. A few days ago me and Audrey were in the car and I asked her what was one thing she wished she could change about me, and she immediately said that she wished I was more "playish" meaning she wants me to play with her more, and then a few hours later when I asked Reagan she said she wanted me to play with her more (and then she said and she wished that I would never spank her again:) so that is my goal, to play with my kids more and not get so wrapped up in all the things I have to do because they are only this age once and before long they wont want to play with me, and I will be wishing I had of done it more often!

Random:)

This is going to be a very random blog, but here goes:) I am hating being away from Tim, it is alot harder than I thought it would be and it puts alot of stress on us. I know that no matter how many times I say I cant do this anymore, I am still going to be doing this until the girls dad gives up fighting the move, and it really gets harder every day, I need to be with my husband, he is my best friend, he keeps me calm, he knows how to make me feel better when I am just having a bad day, and most importantly I can sleep when he is here:) I am not getting any sleep at night and it is driving me crazy!!! On the other hand, I feel like I have gotten closer to my girls (it may be just because I am the only one here and they have to like me lol) At times they make me feel like I am going to go insane and at other times they are the only thing that keeps me sane:) they are the light of my life, and being a mom is the most wonderful part of who I am. Of course I like me time and doing things without them, but when it comes down to it their is no one I would rather spend time with than Tim and my girls! I am trying to learn to put everything in Gods hands and let him handle it, I am not doing a good job, but I am trying!